You’re the only person I want to talk to. We could always talk about anything and everything to each other couldn’t we. We never judged each other , just supported each other.

Everyday that passes it gets harder knowing you’re not here, I dread the start of each new day. You knew I was scared that if anything bad ever happened I wouldn’t be able to be there for you. We talked about it and you’d say ‘Don’t be daft, nowt’s gonna happen to me ‘ , the worst has happened though.

There are so many horrible people walking and breathing and living their lives. Why did it have to be you who was in the wrong place at the wrong time? I think of all the things you’re going to miss and it breaks my heart. You should still be here, it’s bollocks. You are so loved. I’ve heard that red phone ring so many times, but you never think it’s going to ring for someone who means so much to you.

I’ve been told to light a candle or something to say my goodbye to you. I don’t think lighting a candle is really going to cut it , do you ? Besides I don’t know if I’m ready to say goodbye to you. I waited such a long time to meet you . I know people hate me for loving you , but we tried to stop, tried to do the right thing. I really did think we were finished in 2021, but then you turned up at my door and we talked and we couldn’t fight our feelings. I’m feeling overwhelmed and so alone. I still can’t get my head around the fact that you’re gone. How can life go on ? I miss you and it hurts so much. Twelve years in some ways seems like a long time , but on the other hand it’s nowhere near enough. It was always you, it will always be you.

All my love always ❤

Girl-Almighty