I now have a timeline planned out  for everything I need to do.  Looking forward to some changes that I have planned. It’s actually happening 😊

Hi Handsome , The other day I was sitting reading old text messages. There was the one where you said “I worry about you getting bored of me” . You daft sod, I could never get bored of you. It took a while for you to share what was on your mind , but I’m…

I’ve lost 1 stone in 6 weeks, I’m so happy about that. Food wise I’m in a good place. It’s not just diet I’m working on though, it’s the complete package. There are some things that I can never change,  but I’m working on everything that I can improve. There are still lows , all…

Hey you, yesterday was just really low. I re read the horrible messages I got from your son. Why do I keep doing this to myself ffs ? So I’ve been told it’s yet another thing connected to grief, the list is never ending. I also let  something bother me yesterday,  and I don’t know…

Goodness , September is almost over. This month I’ve lost 10lbs , I’m so pleased with that. Every 1lb is a step closer to being healthier. I tell you what though, i could really do with a back massage , it feels painful today. I’m looking forward to losing more weight, I’m so grateful that…

Just a small check in , I can’t believe my head has clicked back into losing weight. Don’t get me wrong there have been treat foods here and there but I’m going in the right direction. The real bonus is at the moment it’s not feeling like an effort, I’m enjoying eating well. What at…

Hey Handsome, Summer has turned to Autumn and as always I miss you. I lay in bed when everything is still and quiet and I ache for you. There are those moments when I just can’t believe that I’ll never see you again. My memories of you are still so vivid it almost feels like…

Hello you , so what happened at the weekend in a strange way has brought me a little bit of peace. I still miss you enormously though. I’ve really gotten my head in the game and the whole life changes mission is going great. I’m feeling so motivated. It’s really hit home that I need…

This week is a bit meh. We lost Charlie cat and of course I’m missing the big un’ , as always. The nights are really starting to draw in now, before we know it , it’ll be dark at 4pm. I’m not a fan of going to work in the dark and coming home from…

Hey you , the big 5-0 today , Happy Birthday big bear. Can’t believe you’re not here enjoying your day. Later I’ll get the candles going and I’ll sit with my memories. Of course I think of you everyday,  but days like this , big events,  occasions that you really should be experiencing,  well it…