Hey you , the big 5-0 today , Happy Birthday big bear. Can’t believe you’re not here enjoying your day. Later I’ll get the candles going and I’ll sit with my memories. Of course I think of you everyday,  but days like this , big events,  occasions that you really should be experiencing,  well it…

Sometimes dragging your sorry self through the month is enough.

Hey you, just tormenting myself listening to your voice

Hello, so a few news articles this week, one of them was posted again on The Sheffield Star fb page late last night. You’ve been let down so badly by the justice system, you deserved better. The woefully inadequate sentence is an absolute travesty. There was the news article near the start of June ,…

Another news article today , the sentence is disgusting, it’s not enough for what happened. There are no words.

Hello gorgeous, been thinking about you loads , lots of thing’s make me think of you. Still making changes to myself , getting myself into a better place. I’m starting to put things in place to change job, to benefit more from working hard. I’m actually looking forward to getting started , it’ll take a…

Hey you, so my b’day today , it’s been just another day. I still miss you singing “Happy Birthday ” to me like you used to . It’s strange how sometimes it’s the really small things that hit the hardest. Of course it will be one of your milestone birthdays at the end of the…

July check in. I’m still pushing forward with the changes. Also I’ve actually been out in the world a bit. Went to Scarborough last week to see Teddy Swims , he was so good , one of the best gigs I’ve ever been to. That boy can sing. Came back and straight into Tramlines ,…

Cards on the table , I really miss sex. I know it’s maybe not the done thing to talk about it, but I do. I miss that contented fuzzy feeling it leaves in it’s wake. I miss the endorphins dancing round my brain making life happy and amazing. I miss having that connection where you…

Hello you, here we are , well into July, the year is going by quickly. It’s Tramlines this coming weekend, the fourth one you haven’t been here for. It sounds like such a long time that you’ve been gone, when you put it in those terms. Why does it still really hurt though if it…