I’ve really been struggling the last few days , so many tears, and that awful hopeless feeling. So today it’s just been watching TV , reading , I’ve  been to fat camp and now watching the football. It would be nice to just be sat with someone , to share the space with someone. To feel relaxed and content , nothing forced. I miss that.

Been having half a think about  where I’d like to be work wise  and looking at different options that could offer a better work/ life balance. I haven’t thought about it too deeply today because I’ve been trying to just relax and not be as hard on myself.

My shopping is out of control again , I’ve got thirty items due to be delivered over the next few days. I know I only shop to try and fill a void, the thing is it’s only a temporary fix.

I’m still blind weighing at fat camp , it’s removed the pressure that I put on myself. I’m just looking at my food one day at a time , I’ll just keep trying to do the best that I can. I’ll see what tomorrow brings. Goodnight.

Girl Almighty xx