Hello Handsome,

Yesterday was a lot , spent a chunk of it in bed being a mardy arse. Thinking of you , lots and lots of snotty crying and later on a few drinks. Looking at your pictures thinking what an handsome bastard you were. You could be a cheeky fucker , but oh so irresistible, that cheeky grin , I should have known you were trouble. I could never say no to you though, even though I should have. I fell so bloody hard for you, you called all the shots.

It’s still a head fuck that you died , even as I write this it feels a touch unreal. You should have had so much more time, it’ll be your 50th in August,  you should be here to celebrate that. Fucking 46 , what kind of age is that to leave this world ? Not an illness , just a pointless fucking accident, wrong place, wrong time , a bad decision , a mistake. I just can’t believe that person in the news was you. It’s shit. I miss you so, so much , wish you were here.

Girl Almighty  xx