Hello Handsome

Today has been the hardest day so far, endless tears and my soul is aching so badly. My heart breaks a little more each day. You were always the one who wiped my tears away if anything was wrong, you just understood me so well. We shared so much in common, you’re my soul mate, they’ll never be another you. I feel so alone , I’ve got no-one to talk to. Well that’s not one hundred percent true, I’ve spoken to the Cruse Bereavement Helpline a couple of times. They let me talk about you and cry for you , and if they disapprove of the situation we were in I can never hear it in their voice. I’ve never felt safer than when I was with you. There was nothing better than seeing your handsome face break into a big beautiful smile. I’m so grateful you felt you could open up to me. I’m glad you trusted me with your feelings, your wants , your needs, your worries. You’d say to me “I wish I’d met you years ago ” , and you knew I felt that way too. I guess some would say that I should be grateful we had the time we did, but my emotions are far too raw for that. It feels like the earth has come off its axis, nothing feels right. It hurts that you and me are just swept away like we had nothing, twelve years isn’t nothing. It feels like your history will be rewritten by some. I know some people don’t think I should miss you and be upset about you. They don’t think I have that right, but I can’t help or deny the way I feel. You were , and always will be, a massive part of my life. Of course my heart is going to break for you, we grieve because we love ❤💔

Speak soon Big Lad

P.S I really need a squidge

All my love

Girl Almighty