Hi Big Lad

So I’ve had more shouty, angry, demanding and mildly threatening messages from yours. I’ve been accused of being disrespectful towards you , I really don’t get how me mourning you is disrespectful, just because they don’t like it. For obvious reasons I haven’t got some of the traditional steps in the grieving process so I’m trying to find other ways. I’ve been accused of saying that I’m mourning your loss more than anyone else. I have never said, claimed, thought or written that I am, so God knows where that has come from. I spoke to someone at a bereavement charity and they said it sounds like all the anger and accusations he’s aiming at me are down to his grief, upset, anger and maybe even guilt. They also said it may be that he’s a little immature in his experiences and understanding of life, people and feelings. I honestly don’t know what it is. I’ve been encouraged in writing my blog, I’ve been told it’s a good outlet for me. I’ve been told I’m wrong by him because it’s not what they’re doing, but everyone has their own way. He doesn’t have to read what I write, just ignore it. I’m not going to deny the last twelve years of my life and someone who was a massive part of life and meant so much to me because other people don’t like it. Also to have them try and tell me I’m wrong regarding you and I, I should know what happened i was there, and I have plenty of messages both voice and text to back that truth up. Almost as an after thought I was also told it isn’t fair on her, but let’s be honest she knew what you were doing and she chose to ignore it. She wanted to put her head in the sand so that’s exactly what so did. Ranting at me isn’t going to change anything. I’ve blocked him , he said even if I did block him he’d find a way to check what I’m doing. Honestly I don’t know why he can’t concentrate on his own grief instead of attacking me over mine.

Love Always

Girl-Almighty