Hi Trouble

Fuck, everything is such a mess. My blog and twitter posts were never about upsetting other people. I just need to get it out, the way I feel, because it becomes too much. I know people don’t understand, because they have each other to lean on and support, I envy them that , but I hope they’re helping each other through. I hoped the diazepam would ease things a little but it hasn’t. I know being involved with you was wrong, but I was always there for you and I love you. I hope you know how much you meant to people. I know sometimes we’d talk and you’d say that you felt lonely, but you were, and still are very much loved. It’s killing me that I can’t say goodbye to you , and even though popular opinion says that I’m a random , and I’m disrespectful and I’m the only one to blame about me and you, I’m still a person with feelings. I know all the things you said about me to your family when the shit hit the fan. Remember me giving you an ear bashing about it when you turned up at mine asking for another chance ? I forgave you too because I love you, fucking daft eh ? Now everything’s gone, you , the baby , fucking everything, and I’m so fucking lonely. I’m not trying to undermine anyone else’s feelings and grief, honestly I’m not. I’m just really struggling and I don’t know what to do.

Love always x

Girl-Almighty