Alright Handsome

Another week almost over. You know of all the days, the crying days , the ‘what if’ days, the ‘why you’ days , the wishing I was wherever you are now days, it’s the angry days I hate the most. I’ve had a few of those this past week and the angry days are the hardest to navigate. My emotions bubble up threatening to spill over, and I feel like saying a massive fuck you to people trying to tell me about my history with you. Telling me they know everything about you and I, sometimes I feel like just getting everything out there, your words spoken and written by you. It wouldn’t surprise them as they claim to know everything. Having said that, if I said the sky was blue they’d say it wasn’t. Yeah I’m that much of a bitch I’ve kept your secrets to myself. If I wanted to be disrespectful I really could have been. I’m sorry big un’ but it really pisses me off. I’m trying to find a new way forward because I know life isn’t going to just stop because you’re gone. It’s bloody hard without you around. All this has really made me re-evaluate the people around me, and it’s better being alone than surrounded by people who don’t really care. I’m no longer willing to cross oceans for people who wouldn’t jump over puddles for me. I think of you every day , life is so fucking unfair. Part of me thinks I should still work towards that big goal and the other part of me thinks fuck it , what’s the point? Sometimes if you were feeling shitty I’d ask you how you were, and you’d reply ‘surviving ‘ , ditto baby, ditto, although I don’t know how.

Love you 💔❤

Girl-Almighty