This week has been a tough one , I think I’ve really acknowledged how scared I am at the moment. Last night I just really needed a hug, all I wanted was to feel his arms around me , my head resting on his chest. I miss that easy feeling of contentment,  that feeling of safety. Knowing that I’ll never have that connection with anyone again is an incredibly lonely feeling. You can’t just replace the irreplaceable,  and I wouldn’t want to , but the thought of this loneliness scares me to death. I don’t believe people are designed to be on their own, it’s not human nature. I try and make my days busy and tiring but more often than not it doesn’t work. I managed to get a decent bit of sleep a few days ago , but prior to that I’d been awake for thirty hours straight. When I feel this exhausted all I want is that hug , no words , just the hug that soothes your soul, if only for a little while. The hug that says , I’m here, I understand, it’s alright. I’ve been thinking of booking a spa break and just taking myself off , I definitely need a break. I don’t think it will fix everything but it may help a little.

Girl-Almighty