Hey Trouble, Where do I start ? There’s so much going round in my head. People don’t get why I’m so upset over you , or they think I should be over you by now, or they think I don’t have any right to be upset about you. The things people say to me hurt me even though I get where they’re coming from. Sometimes for a split second I wish you’d never come back after the big blow up a few years ago. Truthfully though I’m glad you did , you brought things into my life I’d never had before and will never have again. Everything has been brought into sharp focus , I really am alone and that’s scary. I still struggle to get my head around your passing , I think of you and think of you not being here anymore and it won’t go, it’s like I’m trying to force two mismatched jigsaw pieces together. I miss that easy way things were. I was going to go to the last place we ate out together but I couldn’t. It was never anywhere fancy , it never needed to be , just being with you was always enough. Now I feel like everyday just ticks by and I dread them , the tears won’t stop , I can’t remember a day where I haven’t cried for you. I miss you so much , do you know that ? I love you more than I could ever put into words. How can life go on now its changed beyond recognition?

Girl Almighty