Hi Babe,

We’re at that middle in between part where nobody knows what day it is. I’m dreading the New Year, I don’t want to start a new year , it feels like leaving you behind in 2023. On Christmas Day I went and had lunch with J , my sister and nephew. I drank too much and went home and cried about you. Bloody silly cow that I am. I remember a few Christmases ago , you got a present you really weren’t expecting. You said you didn’t think he cared enough to buy you anything like he had got you. I told you not to be daft , of course he’d think enough of you , of course he loved you. Can you see how loved you were now , I hope you can. You are , you always were , I wish you’d felt it and known it while you were still here. If I ever said anything nice to you you’d say “you don’t have to say that” , I said those things to you because I meant them. I waited half a lifetime, and now I’m going to have to spend the rest of my lifetime knowing i”ll never see you again. I miss you so much big lad , I love you.

Girl Alimighty