Hello Darling,

This week I’ve been told I’m experiencing “prolonged grief”, apparently it can happen when someone passes suddenly , among other reasons. It’s Sunday evening and I’m just thinking of the times we’d talk on a Sunday , you’d ask me how my day had been and what I’d been up to. I miss all of the little things so much , even our everyday chats made me happy , you just made me so happy. I’m not happy now , I haven’t been happy for what feels like a very , very long time. It feels like I’ll never be happy again now you’ve gone. I still cry everyday,  I’m such an idiot. I close my eyes and imagine your smile and I can hear your voice. Soon it will be 13 years since our first date , I can still remember exactly how you looked when my taxi pulled up and you were stood outside waiting for me. You looked so handsome. Honestly this grief is so overwhelming,  I’ve never experienced anything like it. I wish this was all just a bad dream that I could wake from and everything would be alright. You were and always will be my favourite bundle of trouble , you bloody bugger. Why weren’t you more careful ? I’m going to go , tears again. I love you , I miss you.

Girl Almighty 💔