Alright Nige

Got to the end of another week 🥺. I had to go somewhere earlier in the week and had to go past where your accident was. The sign is still up , “Serious Collision Occurred Here” , I wish someone would take it down. It’s so matter of fact , don’t people understand how massive that event was ? You never think the social media posts , and news articles will be about someone so special to you. The same as the red resus phone ringing , but it was about you. It’s still so surreal , all these months later. Sometimes it catches in my throat and it’s hard to breathe. I read the quote in the news paper saying you’d passed away peacefully and I try to find a tiny piece of comfort in that. Honestly though how can there be any comfort in you being gone ? I’ve sort of accepted that this pain isn’t going to go away , I’m just trying to exist now, but taking on each new day is really exhausting. I miss you so much it physically hurts , I feel broken. Why did it have to happen to you ? Other people make mistakes and get away with it. Why couldn’t you ? I miss you immensely and always will , I’m a changed person now. We used to talk about getting older and now you never will , you’ll stay forever 46. There’s nothing I wouldn’t do to see you again and hear your voice in person. I love you with every piece of my heart , even if it is broken 💔

Girl – Almighty