Alright Handsome ,

Where has all the time gone ? Thirteen years ago today we went on our first date, I remember it well. You were so easy to talk to , it wasn’t awkward or forced. That smile of yours , so disarming,  you bloody handsome bugger. I wish I could go back in time and relive every moment with you. I wish I could bring you back. This time last year you commented how time flies , but your time was running out and we didn’t even know it . Sometimes I want to scream at you , I want to berate you for not paying attention crossing the road , for being so careless, but we’ve all made a split second bad judgement. I know who I really blame for your death , if it weren’t for them you’d still be alive.The pain is still so raw , and it really is agony knowing I’ll never see you again. We said we’d always be there for each other but when it mattered the most I let you down. I’m so sorry , it plays on my mind everyday. Life is unbearable now , a lot of the time I just want to be where you are. I wish you’d had the courage to not care so much about what other people thought and how you appeared to them. You hid so much behind a façade.

I love you so much

Girl Almighty