Evening Handsome, so ten months today was the beginning of the end , and it must having been playing on my mind because I had a dream about you last night. You were stood in the middle of a field , the grass thick and a lovely green , you looked so happy. I was running towards you but I didn’t seem to be getting any closer to you. I was running so fast my lungs were burning but I just couldn’t get to you. When I woke up for a split second i thought you were still here. It was one of those really vivid dreams that lingers in your mind long after you wake. It keeps popping into your thoughts all day.

I haven’t been taking very good care of myself since you’ve been gone , there doesn’t seem much point. I’m ill again , like I was before , but you’re not here to hold my hand this time. It’ll be ok , would love a squidge though.

My mind sometimes wanders to the thought of you hurt and scared and in pain , and it brings me to my knees , I can’t bear it. I wish I could’ve taken all the bad away for you. None of this is right , you should still be here. You should be here enjoying all the little things. Sometimes I close my eyes and see a montage of my memories of you. Life is lonely with you gone , I don’t know what to do anymore 💔 😔

I love you , always

Girl Almighty