How can time simultaneously freeze in a moment and yet carry on ? Everything feels out of kilter. If I’m honest what I really wished (after wanting you still here of course)  is someone who really understood. Someone who knows how horrendous these last 10 plus months have been. Everything feels really difficult now , and some things feel downright impossible. It stretches out in front of me , the slightest little reminder makes me break down. I listen to your messages just to hear your voice again. Re-read your texts. Torturing myself with thoughts of you.  Devastated , angry,  cheated. I wish I knew the secret of learning to carry on and to have moments in life where everything doesn’t feel like it’s gone to shit , but it eludes me. Send me a hug big lad , I really need one 😢

Love you

Girl Almighty