Hey , so I’ve actually started changing a few things , but it feels wrong because you’re gone. I need to get my shit together but it feels uncaring trying to live some kind of life. Sometimes I get angry at you but I don’t really mean it, I’m angry at the situation. It’s coming up to a year , and I’ll be honest I’m dreading it. How is it already almost a year ? Sometimes it feels like it all happened just a blink ago , and yet sometimes it feels like a lifetime ago. You really were one of a kind weren’t you ? Without trying to sound like a toddler stamping their feet, life really is so unfair sometimes. Why is life so cruel ? They say what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger , but I don’t know if I really believe that. The other day the memories of our indoor picnics popped into my head, such happy times. It’s weird the daft little things were some of the best times of my life. I’m proper gutted , my necklace broke the other week , it really upset me, stupid eh ? I still close my eyes sometimes and a memory will play before my eyes. Other times things you said play in my head , those words you said , ” Don’t be daft, nowts gonna happen to me “, have been playing a lot the last couple of weeks. How they haunt me , I wish you’d been right when you’d said that. I still miss you so much every single day , and even now sometimes it doesn’t feel real. Love you big lad xx

Girl Almighty