Alright Nige,

I spent a few days at the coast last week, so I got to miss you in new and exotic places,  well it wasn’t new or exotic but you know what I’m trying to say. You know you really can’t outrun life, the good and the bad, no matter where you go  or what you do. It still feels in bad taste to take any enjoyment out of anything now you’re gone. It would have been so much better if we’d just called it a day , if you were still alive enjoying life. This is just bollocks, I really do think it’s a case of trying to find ways of carrying on. I don’t think it’s something to be gotten over. From bits and bobs you used to tell me I think you’d be a little surprised by the amount of grief there is for you . You daft bugger,  I still want to bloody shake you sometimes you know. I’m having a few cheeky gins , just to smooth out the edges a little bit. Tonight I wish I could curl up in bed with you , I really miss that closeness , that safe feeling. I miss you big lad , more than I ever thought possible. You had the softest skin , it felt so good. You were quite simply the most handsome , sexy,  beautiful man I’ve ever met. One of a kind , there will never be another you. Oh how I miss our shared times , love you , now, always , forever.

Girl-Almighty