I’m not even sure where to start, this last year has been a real strain, and this weekend has been really difficult. I still can’t believe it’s been a whole year since Nigel passed away, and it hurts just as much as it did a year ago. I’m trying to gear myself up for another biopsy , I’m not going to lie , the last one was really unpleasant, but it needs to be done, so I’m just going to have to put my big girl pants on.

I guess I’m missing having someone to confide in , but more than that I’m missing having someone to just do something to distract my mind a little. Just something normal, just an hour or two to just be and enjoy the moment. Someone to  just enjoy the simple things with. I’m scared but I try and distract myself. It’s the simple things I’m longing for , to sit and share a bag of chips, to sit and laugh , a hug , a feeling of contentment. To feel safe , to have a shoulder. The depth of my loneliness is hitting really hard right now. I miss having that person who just made everything feel better by simply being around. I really miss him.

Girl Almighty