Evening Nige

Do you remember saying those words to me ? It feels like a lifetime ago , in truth it was just under two years ago. The thing is I didn’t always know. Today I’m fucked off that I gave you so much and you left me in this shit storm , you left me to take all the blame. I didn’t get to say goodbye to you ,while people you’d previously told me didn’t give a shit about you , they got to say goodbye. While you were still here I was told terrible things about you, and then after you’d gone doing a massive fucking u-turn and saying how amazing you were. Hypocrisy at its finest. I hate feeling this angry. Sometimes I think fuck it , let’s get the whole story out, the good , the bad , the really shitty bits. The secrets I keep for you still. Bloody stupid bugger getting yourself hit with that car , all you needed to do was just pay attention for a few seconds, and safely get your arse across the road. You threw your life away. Your son had plenty to say to me last year , and I’m always mindful that he could still be lurking in the background checking what I write. I guess in that respect he’s a bit like you , when we weren’t talking I’d see you driving past my place and you admitted you’d been on my social media. In the time we were seeing each other you hurt me a few times with things you did. I still loved you though and I still love you now , stupid eh. Maybe the last few days have taken their toll on me , who knows ? Things just get on top sometimes.

Love you

Girl Almighty