So , it’s been a little time Nige.

I was going to say ‘When did life become so surreal’ , but I know exactly when things changed. It was Owls in the Park this Saturday just gone , ordinarily you’d have been there , enjoying the day. The same day on my memories was a picture from the last Owls in the Park before covid. I remember seeing you there , we managed to steal a few moments together. Messages went into the evening. I miss seeing you , speaking to you , getting messages from you. I miss every piece of you. I miss every contact,  every laugh , every smile. I still can’t believe you’re gone, memories of you pop into my head and it just doesn’t feel real that your life came to an end so suddenly,  so prematurely. It’s a fucked up world sometimes isn’t it? The song ‘Birds of a Feather’ by Billie Eilish reminds me of you , the lyrics are how I felt and still feel about you. I tell you what,  grief is fucking wank.  I’m still spending too much money on things I don’t need just to try and make myself feel better. When in truth there are just some things that can’t be fixed. My love for you was always unconditional,  I don’t expect anyone to understand. Sometimes I could do with it not hurting so much, just for a little while. I’ll love you til the day that I die.

Always

Girl Almighty 💔