Just sat thinking about things. In two weeks it’ll be Tramlines, I remember two years ago , lovely memories ❤ , but it would be your last summer and we never even knew it. My heart aches for all the things you’ll miss, all the life you should still be living. All the thousands of people and yet you were the unlucky one, not that i would wish this on anybody,  but sometimes I do think why you ? Why did it have to be you ? How hard life is without you around. I still wish I could go back in time , but that’s crazy thinking. It’s all about one day at a time now. Over a year later and my memories of you still make me cry , I desperately want to just feel the pure joy you brought me but knowing they’ll never be new memories is bloody hard. I look out of my bedroom and I can picture you standing below smiling up at me the way you sometimes used to. A montage of all our best bits play in my mind. Watching the football makes me think of you , a song will play and it’ll remind me of you , a place , a smell and I’m back in a memory, but my memories aren’t enough. Is this the way it will always feel now ? Lonely and hurting and hating that you’ve gone. Broken that I couldn’t say goodbye,  feeling like I let you down . I’m missing you every second , I love you always ❤💔

Girl Almighty