Hello Nige,

It’ll be your birthday soon , the second one without you here. I’m still missing you massively,  I’m really struggling at the moment and you always made everything feel better. I just can’t get a grip lately,  there’s so much going on. I saw so many terrible things on A&E , but despite everything there were people who would recover. I wish you could have been one of those people , if only you could have pulled through , but it wasn’t to be. Everyday I wish there could have been a different outcome. Everyday I wish you’d been more careful. A minute before , a minute later and maybe it wouldn’t have happened. Were you just blasè,  ” Don’t be daft , nowt’s going to happen to me” , those were the words you said to me. Oh Nigel what were you doing , you could and should , still be here. I’m crumbling right now and I don’t know what to do. I need a hug. I miss you , I need you 💔

Love you

Girl Almighty