Alright, half past midnight and wide awake Nige. Sometimes I get so fucking angry with you, angry about the shitty things you did , angry that this is the way life is now. Angry that you couldn’t fucking cross a road. I get so close sometimes to just laying everything bare, saying a massive fuck you to people and letting everything flood out. Counselling session on Wednesday,  I honestly don’t know what I’ll open up about come the day, there is so much swimming around in my head , maybe I’ll talk about our baby , that’s still a massive head fuck. Maybe I’ll talk about the things you told me that I really wish you hadn’t. I just don’t know. Maybe I’ll just cry. Who knows ? I wish I could delude myself about things , the way others seem to have , but you know me , face the truth even though it hurts. Maybe one day the secrets will feel too big to keep inside, so many conflicting emotions.

Girl Almighty