Hey , Sorry I was pissed off , I still love you an immeasurable amount. Had my counselling session , the lady was really lovely but it wasn’t a magic wand , not that I thought it would be. I talked about you , me , events , my weaknesses,  your weaknesses. Some hard truths , tears , you know. I’m not sure it really helped in any meaningful way but it was worth a try. I’ve decided to go back to studying,  it’s been a big decision for me , but I’m going to give it a go. I’ve been treading water since you died , I just hope I’m up to the challenge. One of your big confessions came out at the counselling session , but I did say I didn’t know what would be discussed , and it just spilled out. I’m sorry but it does go through my mind sometimes. The days and nights are getting cooler now and I miss you loads. I wish you were still here to laugh at the Teddy bedding , I miss that laugh so much. I miss absolutely everything truth be told 😪 It cripples me to know that I’ll never know those moments again. It’s a lonely old world with you gone. I love you so much handsome,  one of a kind and occasional pain in the arse. All my love

Girl Almighty