Hey Nige ,

My head is swimming, has been since I had my counselling appointment. I feel like I need to get everything out. I know if I do it won’t put you or I in the best light, but I’m hurting so much I need a release. If I did write about it , it would be gritty and raw. Part of me thinks I can’t do it , but on the other hand I also think  why should I protect the feelings of someone who told me that I wasn’t even  allowed to speak your name. He claimed to know everything,  yet if he really did I think his head would explode. Surely he stopped reading my musings a long time ago. So maybe it’s safe to now. We were complex and it’s fucking my head up. I know I was a complete fool with you,  but I certainly wasn’t the only one. As always still love you loads.

Girl Almighty