Hi big bear, today has just been a bit of a lazy one. I did have a couple of hours of being kind of productive with regards to taking steps to a new career. I really should get sorted out in that respect. Sometimes I do think does any of it really matter, my dream of having my ideal home and stuff like that. I think maybe I’m trying to regain that feeling of safety, security,  that feeling of just being and feeling content,  the way you made me feel. I know bricks and mortar can’t replace a person but sometimes a substitution is better than nothing. I’m probably not making much sense. It is difficult knowing i’ll never feel a hug again , never just sit and eat and talk and laugh. Life isn’t perfect,  but there are moments that make the everyday grind better. It feels like there are no more moments like that to break up the tough parts of life. It really is just work , eat , sleep , repeat.

It’s that time of year I’d have all the little fairy lights and the candles on  and we’d snuggle. I loved those moments, a soft  blanket covering us , I don’t think I’ve ever felt happier. Resting my head on you , sometimes we’d talk,  sometimes we’d just be , either way those were some of my favourite times with you. I miss those moments so much , I wish I could have them again. The most simple of things are sometimes the best things to have. I miss the warmth of you , I miss you pulling me in and enveloping me , I want that again so much and it can’t ever be. Night night , speak soon. I love you xx

Girl Almighty