Hi Trouble , you know yesterday I really wasn’t trying to be hurtful about you. It’s just emotions rearing their heads , the way you said you could talk to me , well this is my version of that. You were bloody hard work sometimes you know. In a way I’m glad that you felt that you could talk to me and that it made you feel a little bit better by getting things off  your chest. Now though ,on the flip side of that, I do get pissed off sometimes about how territorial people were about you after your death i think that they should have been the ones you talked to , they should have dealt with all the things you pushed onto me. I never would have turned you away though , all the times you said you needed me. Even when everything came to a head in 2021 you phoned me and asked me if you could come and see me , I asked you why you’d want to and you said “to talk to you, I’ve got no-one else I can talk to ” . I thought I would have been the last person that you’d wanted to see. After that we didn’t see or speak to each other for a bit , I changed my phone number and I honestly thought that was that. Then one Thursday night there was a knock on my door and there you were again, telling me you’d missed me and how you wanted us to start up again. Even though we should have stayed away from each other, and despite how shitty this last couple of years has been and continues to be, I could never regret us making up. Counselling is really hard , and I’m not  fully convinced it’s having the desired affect, but I keep trying , it’s exhausting sometimes,  but life can be that way. Anyway the old eyes are starting to water so I’ll sign off for now. Love you loads knobhead.

Girl Almighty