Hey Nige,

So it was Tramlines this weekend just gone, it was nice to get out and about. It was bittersweet as it does make me think of you. It’s another missing piece. After not letting my picture be taken for so long, these past couple of years I’ve changed that. Life is too short, and none of us know what is round the corner. What’s the point of waiting until things are different. Had a little cry over you Friday and Saturday night when I got home, and a big cry last night (Sunday), it just hits at times. I’ve booked a few breaks away, nothing special or sparkling by many people’s standards,  but a few days away with a hot tub sounds good to me . Just to sit and relax with some good food and a good book. When you first died someone told me that the grief doesn’t go away, but you learn to carry it with you. I’m not there yet, and I’m trying to let go of some of the guilt that I feel about you. I miss you so much , and it’s still like a really , really bad dream. You know the kind that are really vivid and remain on your mind long after you wake. I loved you then, I love you now and I will love you always. Sleep gently beautiful man.

Girl Almighty