Hi Sausage

So as the title suggests I’ve been a bit up and down , it’s that time of year. It’s been one of those days today , where it seems completely surreal that you’re no longer alive. You , such a big person , a big character,  sometimes it’s hard to try and wrap my head around it, some days that reality just doesn’t want to sink in. On days like these it just doesn’t feel possible and yet it is. I get so very sad thinking about the dreams and aspirations you talked about , knowing they’ll never be a reality for you now. It’s  so wrong isn’t it ? How quickly things can change and turn everything upside down. “Don’t be daft nowt’s going to happen to me ” I can still hear your voice saying those words. If only that statement had been true. Is it normal to still feel this sad? It hasn’t lessened, it’s still so acute. Is there a place where happiness can exist alongside this sadness ? I don’t know.

I still miss you so much and there are still so many tears, that feeling of wishing time could rewind is still there.

All my love always

Girl Almighty