Having a bit of a wobble this week, just don’t feel well within myself. Had an absolute nightmare of a migraine for a few days and now really bad postdrome (migraine hangover). It’s not the worst attack I’ve ever had, but it’s up there.

I got really upset about the baby the other night , it just came out of nowhere. All those memories and thoughts and feelings just surfaced again, I don’t know why. It still hurts my heart , even after the time that’s passed. It’s another thing I can’t change , god I wish that I could.

I just feel really , really low and just really alone. I don’t know what to do.

I was going to really get it all out , the whole baby episode , but now I’m actually writing it feels too difficult right now. It’s so complicated,  I think it will take a while to get that chapter into words.

I think one thing that I would like people to realise is that for every bad thing he may have said about me to them , he said just as many bad things  about them to me. And if they are under the illusion that they know everything,  I can promise them they don’t.

Girl Almighty