Quiet Sunday today, just getting some everyday stuff done. Been doing so much overthinking lately,  I don’t know why on earth I do it to myself. Recently I’ve been really , really longing to just be held , no speaking , to just feel alright and safe in a pair of arms. You’re gone though , and even the thought of being hugged by someone else makes me feel dirty, if that makes sense. Yet I still long for that physical comfort, to curl up with another person in quiet contentment , to just be.

I’ve started writing a long blog piece because recently I’ve  been really struggling with the complexities of mine and your involvement. Everything is so tightly entwined together. I think maybe one of the reasons I feel the need to get everything out is because I’ve been misinterpreted. Your son said that I had claimed that I was grieving more for you than anyone else , and that’s simply not true , I never said , wrote or thought that. There’s so much I need to get straight so it may take a while.

I still love you dearly and that love can still sit beside me hating some of the parts of us.

All my love

Girl Almighty