Hello beautiful boy, it’s 01:40 and I can’t sleep. It’s one of those nights where things are just playing over and over in my mind. Memories of you, God I miss you. I long to be held , but only by you, and I know that will never happen again, and the loneliness feels suffocating tonight. You expect grief to be hard emotionally,  but I was never prepared for the physical pain I feel as well. My body and soul ache everyday. People say it gets better , it gets easier , but when will it ?Will it ever feel a little bit easier. Why couldn’t you have just taken a minute to get across that road safely ? You could still be here , you should still be here. Here come the water works , tears and snot everywhere,  I’ll talk to you later OK.

All my love

Girl Almighty