Nige today is hard. Been reading your messages , listening to your voice , looking at the pictures you’d send. I had a bad dream about you last night, in it you were in so much pain and I couldn’t help you. I look at your pictures and it’s crazy to think you’re no longer flesh and blood. Beautiful you , gone, your soft skin , your strong hands , your broad shoulders , your beautiful body , decaying away. Fucking hell , I don’t how to miss you less , I don’t know how to make it hurt less. It’s driving me mad , I don’t know how to find a way forward. The hugs that healed went with you. All the bad days are coming up , the date of your accident,  the date of your death , our baby’s birthday. I’m dreading it to be honest.

I can’t wait to get home, well nowhere really feels like home but you know what I mean. I’d just like a hot shower , get some fresh pj’s on , climb into the pages of a good book and just for a little piece of time not think about all the bad things. You’re never very far from my thoughts though , you’re always there. I miss you beyond what any words could ever describe,  and I love you just as much as I miss you. Always. Sleep gently  you handsome devil.

💔😢

Girl Almighty