The Girl Almighty

  • Hey Trouble

    Hey Trouble, Where do I start ? There’s so much going round in my head. People don’t get why I’m so upset over you , or they think I should be over you by now, or they think I don’t have any right to be upset about you. The things people say to me hurt…

  • I Miss You

    Alright Handsome, Still missing you enormously. People say “you’ll get over it ” , I don’t believe you do. I’ve read that you learn to carry it and live with it. Carry it ? I can’t even pick it up. I’d say you are the backdrop to my days but you’re much more prominent than…

  • Happy Birthday Handsome

    Happy Birthday trouble, how’s it going? You should be here you know , enjoying your day, getting spoiled by the people who love you. You’ve left the hugest hole and everythings changed. Been thinking about your smile, that cheeky face , you bugger. I hope you’re enjoying your birthday, things aren’t the same down here…

  • One Step At A Time

    This week has been a tough one , I think I’ve really acknowledged how scared I am at the moment. Last night I just really needed a hug, all I wanted was to feel his arms around me , my head resting on his chest. I miss that easy feeling of contentment,  that feeling of…

  • Breathe in, breathe out

    Alright Handsome Another week almost over. You know of all the days, the crying days , the ‘what if’ days, the ‘why you’ days , the wishing I was wherever you are now days, it’s the angry days I hate the most. I’ve had a few of those this past week and the angry days…

  • Big Girls Cry When Their Hearts Are Breaking

    Well by some minor miracle I’ve dragged myself through another week. Oh don’t get me wrong I’m still a total mess. Back to bouts of crying in public (and private of course), and I still haven’t managed to get my arse back to work. Everything has sort of lost all meaning to be honest. I’ve…

  • Tattoos, Tears, Tablets & Tramlines

    Hi Handsome, What a roller coaster week it’s been. So I had a memorial tattoo done for you and M has done an amazing job. Some of your handwriting is at the side, it’s beautiful, I hope you like it. I still just take one day at a time , I’m still in quite a…

  • A Little Bit Of Peace

    Today I went and got my memorial tattoo done, it’s so beautiful. In a strange way it’s brought me some peace, I know that probably sounds a little bit mad, but hey you do what you have to do. I’ve found the last few days really difficult, so to feel that little bit of calm…

  • Stormy Weather

    A little like the weather at the moment my emotions are all over the place. My feelings fluctuate throughout the day and into the night, it can feel exhausting mentally and physically. Lately there’s been times just drift off, watching the rain and listening to the rhythmic patter on the windows. It’s soothing in a…

  • Anger, Grief & Guilt

    I’m angry, there i said it. Right now I’m so bloody angry about so many things. I’m angry at you for being in the accident, I’m angry at the driver of the car that hit you, I’m angry I’m being told I can’t mourn you and don’t count, and I’m angry at having to eat…