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You’re the only one I can talk to
Hi Trouble Fuck, everything is such a mess. My blog and twitter posts were never about upsetting other people. I just need to get it out, the way I feel, because it becomes too much. I know people don’t understand, because they have each other to lean on and support, I envy them that ,…
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Circle of One
I’ve felt lonely before, but nothing quite on this scale. We live in the age of social media where people flippantly write posts urging everyone to #bekind and claiming to be all clued up on mental health issues and a myriad of other things. In reality it’s all bullshit, they’re much happier to ignore the…
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Hi Big Lad So I’ve had more shouty, angry, demanding and mildly threatening messages from yours. I’ve been accused of being disrespectful towards you , I really don’t get how me mourning you is disrespectful, just because they don’t like it. For obvious reasons I haven’t got some of the traditional steps in the grieving…
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The ebb and flow of grief
Ebb and flow is the perfect idiom to describe grief, one moment it’s a huge tidal wave pulling you under, suffocating you, another moment it’s just feeling completely numb. Grief is also a hugely individual experience. For me at the moment disbelief is massive part of it, several times a day it’s almost like I…
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Hello Handsome
Hello Handsome Today has been the hardest day so far, endless tears and my soul is aching so badly. My heart breaks a little more each day. You were always the one who wiped my tears away if anything was wrong, you just understood me so well. We shared so much in common, you’re my…
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Dear …..
You’re the only person I want to talk to. We could always talk about anything and everything to each other couldn’t we. We never judged each other , just supported each other. Everyday that passes it gets harder knowing you’re not here, I dread the start of each new day. You knew I was scared…
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I don’t have a guide for this
Grief, is therea more complex emotion? People talk about the stages of grief and the time when the pain will ease almost like it’s a simple step by step process. A task to be completed and ticked off. It’s not simple, and the ‘steps’ are in no order, you move back and forth , numb,…
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No absolution
What exactly is this ? Is it a way of me trying to ease the thoughts in my mind? Is it a cautionary tale ? Is it a mass of raw emotions vying to get out? To me i suppose it’s all of those and more. I don’t expect sympathy or pity as a result…
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Love Is A Losing Game
The idea for The Girl Almighty blog was formed around four years ago and it’s sat quietly in my thoughts since then. The irony is the event that has prompted me to get started has left me feeling anything but mighty. I’m grieving the love of my life, I’m grieving because I’ll never feel his…
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First blog coming soon xx