The Girl Almighty

  • Birds of a Feather and Owls in the Park

    So , it’s been a little time Nige. I was going to say ‘When did life become so surreal’ , but I know exactly when things changed. It was Owls in the Park this Saturday just gone , ordinarily you’d have been there , enjoying the day. The same day on my memories was a…

  • You’re my little belter, you know that don’t you ?

    Evening Nige Do you remember saying those words to me ? It feels like a lifetime ago , in truth it was just under two years ago. The thing is I didn’t always know. Today I’m fucked off that I gave you so much and you left me in this shit storm , you left…

  • Out of sorts

    Hi It’s been one of those strange days today , you know where you just feel uneasy in yourself. I went past where your accident happened today , the sign has finally gone. I’m grateful to whoever took it down , but needless to say , I wish it had never needed to be put…

  • The only person I wanted to talk to about your death was you

    Hi, I listened to your voice today , I don’t know why I do it to myself . I’m just stuck in this place , stuck in this feeling. Maybe I’m so over emotional because I’m really tired and really lonely. You inspired such love,  sometimes for a second I wonder if it would have…

  • Summer Memories

    Hi Nige , Just a quick one tonight,  today has been a beautiful day  weather wise, it may even  have been a ‘you full kit off in your shed looking fit af’ kind of day. God I miss you , I wish you could have been saved. What’s wrong with me ? Why does it…

  • One day at a time

    Well  today,  by the skin of my teeth, I’ve dodged having to have a blood transfusion. I’m taking that as a win , I may need one later, but I’ll cross that bridge if and when I get to it. I need to start taking better care of myself , and I’m trying to ,…

  • And for the tiniest moment it’s all not true

    Hey Handsome It’s been a bit , but I’ve been reyt cream crackered these past few weeks. You’ve still been in my thoughts everyday though , still missing you loads you know. Been thinking about different little memories of you. When you sometimes used to tell me you were outside and I’d look out of…

  • Big Girl Pants

    I’m not even sure where to start, this last year has been a real strain, and this weekend has been really difficult. I still can’t believe it’s been a whole year since Nigel passed away, and it hurts just as much as it did a year ago. I’m trying to gear myself up for another…

  • A Day of Contemplation

    Evening Nigel, Today has felt strange,  you know when everything feels off kilter, not quite right . I’ve felt very scared today , I can feel myself getting down. I think I need to try and get outdoors , get some fresh air and busy myself. I’m trying to lose weight , but your voice…

  • Everlasting Heartache

    It’s coming up to the year mark of Nigel’s passing and I’m still trying to get my head around it all. Sometimes,  even after all these months , it hits me again that he’s really gone. I know that sounds stupid , but it’s almost like it’s all been a nightmare and he’s still here…