Hi Darling,

Been reading old diaries today , all those memories of you and me. I’m thinking of decorating my place , the way I spoke about it to you. You said it would look nice how I was planning to do it , you’ll never see it now though. In a way I don’t want to change anything from when you were here, but I know I can’t keep it the same forever. Having said that I haven’t slept in my bedroom since you died. I’ve been sorting through things , I’ve still got a few of the baby clothes, all still in their bags, I couldn’t let everything go. I remember you saying a couple of months before your accident how life was short. I wish you’d paid more attention when you were crossing the road, your accident was so bloody pointless, it should never have happened. It’s hard not to be angry sometimes, I can’t believe your life ended so needlessly at 46 years old. Then I had your son spitting his bile at me, because as an adult you made choices he didn’t like. I refuse to apologise for loving you. I suppose I’m just upset that you were careless, that a stupid decision brought us to this point. You bloody daft sod, look at the state of things now.

Love you always

Girl Almighty