Today marks 18 months of no you, 18 months of tears and sleepless nights. 18 months of disbelief and grief. 18 months of futile wishes and what if’s. 18 months of missing you.

Life is scary and uncertain,  it’s nice to think you have an ally , to create those moments of calm, of bliss. The moments that lift you , that make you feel such happiness. The moments of love and safety,  laughter and joy. You felt like my ally and I feel really lost without you around. I miss the connection that just felt so natural with you, the easy way of just spending time with you, never an effort just natural.

Today I’ve been trying to distract myself with a book , but as always you are ever present in my thoughts. Tears on and off , but I’m sure that comes as no surprise as it’s the same everyday. The nights are dark and getting colder now, I put the fairy lights on and like the soft glow,  but you’re missing. It’s not like we ever spent every dark , cold evening together,  but I mourn the times we did spend together. Sleep gently darling , speak soon 💔

My love unfailing,  as ever

Girl Almighty