Hello Sausage

I’m a reyt little crab apple today, I’ve only had about three hours sleep and I feel super tired. I’ve got so much to do, could really do with a little light relief that’s for sure.

Just finished the latest book that I’ve been reading. It was a bit of a hard read, not least because one of the characters had elements of you in their personality,  the less salubrious parts of your character. I don’t like to dwell on those parts of you, and the book made me think of those characteristics that you held. Sometimes you made loving you hard, but I still did. You could just draw people in , you always said the right things (well most of the time). I saw you, and in a way I think that’s worse, because I still loved you. In spite of your occasional cruelty i still loved you, I still love you now. Stupid.

Working hard , I still have my dream of my forever home , although I have serious doubts about if I would ever really be able leave the place that I made so many memories with you. I don’t have much to hold onto.

Do you know , I’m just overtired , you know when you’re that exhausted you feel hot and clammy and you have a pounding headache. Tomorrow night I’m planning a little at home pamper, fluffy dressing gown on , foot spa , facial , a book and a Bailey’s Terry Chocolate Orange hot chocolate. The only thing missing will be a lovely hug , to just have that physical contact , nothing feels better does it ? Well I’m sure you’d have some alternative suggestions naughty boy. I’m missing you so very much , you bloody bundle of trouble. Love you always.

Girl Almighty xx