End of the month update. Still working hard on the diet , I’m blind weighing at the moment, it just takes the pressure off not thinking about a number. I know as long as i stick to eating well, the extra weight will come off. I’m planning to see where I’m at when the end of July arrives.

We’ve had some lovely weather lately,  sunshine and blue skies , I think that makes everyone feel a little better, doesn’t it ? Not going to lie there have been oodles of tears this month, the nights are the hardest. There have been quite a few nights where I’ve laid and cried well into the start of the next day. A thought that’s randomly been popping in my head recently is , this time three years ago Nigel was living his last few days of normalcy. Time was running out and nobody knew , everyone not  aware of what was coming. The ache of missing him has become the normal now. The knowledge that he’s gone still doesn’t sit right in my head.

Had a lovely brunch the other day at a new place, The Common Mill , it was lovely. There will definitely be more visits , the food was delicious and the cocktails look lovely (it was a tad early in the day when we went), they also stock a few of my favourite gins.

Pushing on  slowly forwards , every little step progress. Even though it’s still agony to wake in a world without Nige in it, I’m certain that feeling will travel with me regardless of what comes in life. It will never feel right that he’s gone,  and it shouldn’t, he left a huge space that’s impossible to fill. Life isn’t perfection and there’s no better example than him dying to show just how terrible life can be. Sometimes you just have to remind yourself that sometimes getting up and trying is enough.

Girl Almighty