Hey you, yesterday was just really low. I re read the horrible messages I got from your son. Why do I keep doing this to myself ffs ? So I’ve been told it’s yet another thing connected to grief, the list is never ending. I also let  something bother me yesterday,  and I don’t know why because it really doesn’t matter.

The last few days I’ve really been missing sex, it feels like I shouldn’t even be thinking about sex , but those desires remain even though you’re gone. I could never be with anyone else now , they wouldn’t be you. Oh it’s doing my head in, I feel lost.

I’m going deep with the whole lose weight, get healthy, makeover,  glow up project. I’m working hard to bring everything together. I’m making big changes and addressing some of my personal concerns that I’ve longed to do for a very long time.

I’m missing you so much right now, the way your words would melt me , I miss the caress of your fingers , your mouth on me , your body on mine. It’s still breaking me that you’re gone, I love you so very much.

All my love always

Girl Almighty