I’ve lost 1 stone in 6 weeks, I’m so happy about that. Food wise I’m in a good place. It’s not just diet I’m working on though, it’s the complete package. There are some things that I can never change,  but I’m working on everything that I can improve.

There are still lows , all the emotions around him are still very raw, I think that will always be the case, it’s just trying to find a way to  live with it.

Is it wrong for me to want a little contentment? Part of me feels guilty about doing anything. It would be nice to enjoy simple pleasures and dare I say it feel a little bit of happiness sometimes.

I accept that there will be certain elements missing from life now , it’s really hard to accept the loss of connection with another person. Sitting or laying with someone,  sharing the space , and it feeling natural , and comforting. Missing that desire , caring and loving someone.

I really, really miss those things.

I’m going to continue effecting change in my life and try and make it the best that I can.

Girl Almighty