The Girl Almighty

  • Triggers

    Hey Big Lad, Today’s been a really hard one. I read something earlier that made me think of the bad times we had , there were a few , of course there was. Times that really hurt. It’s just really got to me , fucking daft eh ? I just feel so stuck and scared,…

  • A Slipping Down Life

    Evening Nige, Well it’s been a while but that doesn’t mean I haven’t been thinking about you. You’re in my thoughts every single day. It still completely breaks me that you’re not here anymore. I still can’t believe what’s happened, it seems so unreal still. I bloody miss you so much you know. I feel…

  • Hi Nige

    Hi Nige, Now seems the right time to write this to you. I think your eldest son has stopped reading my blog posts and I haven’t had a message from him since the beginning of June , which is a relief to be honest. Don’t get me wrong, I get why he hates me and…

  • How can you mend a broken heart ?

    Hello babe It’s scary how quickly everything can change isn’t it ? How things can just fall apart. All I cared about was your happiness and what you wanted, you know I was always there for you if you needed me. You always used to say it takes two, but others don’t see it that…

  • Little Girl Lost

    Hi Big Lad Well here we are at the start of another new month without you. I cry myself hollow over you every single day without exception. You’re death has completely shattered me, it’s hit so very hard. I know there’s all those old clichés, you know the ones, it’ll get better in time, it’ll…

  • Too many questions, not enough answers

    So many questions and no answers. Why can’t I pull myself together? Why am I finding everything so difficult? I don’t know why I can’t just dust myself off and get on with everyday life. I don’t know why I’m finding the day to day so hard , other people manage it so why can’t…

  • Hey Trouble

    Hey Trouble, Where do I start ? There’s so much going round in my head. People don’t get why I’m so upset over you , or they think I should be over you by now, or they think I don’t have any right to be upset about you. The things people say to me hurt…

  • I Miss You

    Alright Handsome, Still missing you enormously. People say “you’ll get over it ” , I don’t believe you do. I’ve read that you learn to carry it and live with it. Carry it ? I can’t even pick it up. I’d say you are the backdrop to my days but you’re much more prominent than…

  • Happy Birthday Handsome

    Happy Birthday trouble, how’s it going? You should be here you know , enjoying your day, getting spoiled by the people who love you. You’ve left the hugest hole and everythings changed. Been thinking about your smile, that cheeky face , you bugger. I hope you’re enjoying your birthday, things aren’t the same down here…

  • One Step At A Time

    This week has been a tough one , I think I’ve really acknowledged how scared I am at the moment. Last night I just really needed a hug, all I wanted was to feel his arms around me , my head resting on his chest. I miss that easy feeling of contentment,  that feeling of…