The Girl Almighty

  • It’s not the most wonderful time of the year

    So Nige, December is completely kicking my arse, maybe it’s because as the year ending approaches people reflect on things. All I know is I don’t want to start a new year knowing you won’t be starting it too. All I want is to run towards you. Everything feels like it’s slipping away and as…

  • Ignorance Is Bliss

    Just a quick one , it’s 5:55am and I haven’t been able to sleep. Thought’s and memories are running over and over. There are things you told me that I wish you never had. One of the things you told me makes me feel sick and sad for you all at the same time. Why…

  • Tis the Season

    So December is right around the corner and before we know it 2024 will be here. It’s hard to think of a new year starting, a year you’ll not be a part of. It seems so wrong, time marching on without you being around. Yet it does and it feels like you’re going further away,…

  • Six months

    Hi Nige Well tomorrow it will be six whole months since you passed. I can still remember those days so clearly,  the days between the accident and finding out you’d gone. The days of endless tears and fear and trying to make stupid deals with a God I’m not sure i believe in. Just hoping…

  • Triggers

    Hey Big Lad, Today’s been a really hard one. I read something earlier that made me think of the bad times we had , there were a few , of course there was. Times that really hurt. It’s just really got to me , fucking daft eh ? I just feel so stuck and scared,…

  • A Slipping Down Life

    Evening Nige, Well it’s been a while but that doesn’t mean I haven’t been thinking about you. You’re in my thoughts every single day. It still completely breaks me that you’re not here anymore. I still can’t believe what’s happened, it seems so unreal still. I bloody miss you so much you know. I feel…

  • Hi Nige

    Hi Nige, Now seems the right time to write this to you. I think your eldest son has stopped reading my blog posts and I haven’t had a message from him since the beginning of June , which is a relief to be honest. Don’t get me wrong, I get why he hates me and…

  • How can you mend a broken heart ?

    Hello babe It’s scary how quickly everything can change isn’t it ? How things can just fall apart. All I cared about was your happiness and what you wanted, you know I was always there for you if you needed me. You always used to say it takes two, but others don’t see it that…

  • Little Girl Lost

    Hi Big Lad Well here we are at the start of another new month without you. I cry myself hollow over you every single day without exception. You’re death has completely shattered me, it’s hit so very hard. I know there’s all those old clichés, you know the ones, it’ll get better in time, it’ll…

  • Too many questions, not enough answers

    So many questions and no answers. Why can’t I pull myself together? Why am I finding everything so difficult? I don’t know why I can’t just dust myself off and get on with everyday life. I don’t know why I’m finding the day to day so hard , other people manage it so why can’t…