Quiet Sunday today, just getting some everyday stuff done. Been doing so much overthinking lately,  I don’t know why on earth I do it to myself. Recently I’ve been really , really longing to just be held , no speaking , to just feel alright and safe in a pair of arms. You’re gone though…

Having a bit of a wobble this week, just don’t feel well within myself. Had an absolute nightmare of a migraine for a few days and now really bad postdrome (migraine hangover). It’s not the worst attack I’ve ever had, but it’s up there. I got really upset about the baby the other night ,…

Hello Sausage I’m a reyt little crab apple today, I’ve only had about three hours sleep and I feel super tired. I’ve got so much to do, could really do with a little light relief that’s for sure. Just finished the latest book that I’ve been reading. It was a bit of a hard read,…

Update on the life reset, so what started in January as some new little routines, to improve myself and my life, has now evolved into a full scale military operation. It’s no secret that over the past few years I haven’t taken care of myself. Grief,  stress, anxiety and huge changes have impacted me in…

So there I was scrolling on Vinted , and someone was selling some framed cross stitch pieces that they had made. One reminded me of you straight away. It couldn’t have fitted anymore perfectly , you and your fantasies bugger lugs. Of course i bought it. I still miss every single part of you every…

Hi Sausage , I decided a brilliant end to January would be to fall down a flight of stairs,  ffs. I think my days as a stuntwoman are over. Done a proper job on my shoulder and a bit bashed, bruised and aching in a few other areas. What am I like eh ? When…

Hi Sausage So as the title suggests I’ve been a bit up and down , it’s that time of year. It’s been one of those days today , where it seems completely surreal that you’re no longer alive. You , such a big person , a big character,  sometimes it’s hard to try and wrap…

I’m starting a major reset , I’m breaking it down into one month at a time. The main aims this month are to lose 7lbs , earn more money and spend less money. I’ve got a new planner so I can map everything out, each task broken down into manageable steps. The aim is to…

Hello Handsome , so here we are , it’s almost Crimble and another year is almost ending. It’s absolutely insane that this will be the third Christmas you’ve missed. We were never going to have a Christmas day , sometimes in life you have to accept that life is  not going to go the way…

Hey Handsome , Couple of days away , but I’m glad to be home now. Feeling tired and a little emotional tonight. December already , this year has gone crazy fast, in no time it’ll be the New Year. Always missing you but tonight just feeling it a bit more, it’s sometimes like that, up…